Innerchild I don't see where anybody is judging you. And no one can make you feel stupid, only you can make that happen. You see we are all alcoholics here and have been where you stand right now. We said the same things to ourselves and others. So we do know what, not who, is talking. It is hard to be an injured victim among those who played that role so well, for so long, and stopped, dontcha think?