Originally Posted by
Lotus2009 
Hi everyone,
I'm curious to know what people are thinking about right before they take that first step and buy their first drink after being sober for a year (or longer)? Maybe some of you could shed some light on this for me?
Honestly, I think that we alcoholics have no idea of why we relapse. I can talk about stress, tiredness, loneliness, etc... but actually I cannot explain why I relapse. It seems to me so insane as it may seem to you. Sorry, my english is not very good.