Each time I returned to drinking....it was simply because ..regardless of anything else
I wanted to drink more than I wanted to be sober
I finally quit 22 years ago...after I read "Under The Influence" by milam & Ketcham
re connected to God and refreshed my AA committment by beginning Step work. ....
I required a 3fold approach to why I drank after I wanted to stop..
wishing all the best for the two of you: ..