I basically blindsided all of my co-workers and my family because of my use. When I was finally confronted they weren't even sure I was using except I flat out told them I wouldn't pass a drug test.
I was working on one of the hardest paced floors at the hospital and used mostly just to keep me going nights. I had a love / hate relationship with my job and for most of those 8 years I specialized in hospice. My depression at the end is what really sent me over the edge. Two weeks before I got caught I asked my supervisor to please not give me any hospice patients cause I needed a break. That week I had 5 consecutive deaths. Needless to say I had alot of resentment and I was willing to take care of other people but not take care of myself.
I now have a year to get my stuff together and hope I will be able to find another job in nursing while on probation. There are alot of people in the medical field that are not forgiving...so time will tell.