meditation, Thank you for sharing! Three years- that is so incredible! You are awesome. I was talking with my counselor tonight, as well as some other recovering nurses in my group therapy, and something suddenly dawned on me. Long-term recovery, and particular nurses in recovery, is like a club that I can not WAIT to join. I'm still so new to it all and not naive enough to think I've even begun to deal with the challenges recovery will give me, but I can honestly say that I can't wait to use to skills I've learned to conquer the things that come my way, and maybe one day be able to feel like i've actually achieved enough to join that cool kid's club. I can't wait to not feel scared, tired, frazzled, anxious, ashamed all/most of the time. I know that I need to practice patience (oh, but my addict brain wants instant gratification!) and work my program until I can achieve these things in time.