So here is my story:
Have had some minor back issues since 2005-6, and started taking some Lortab. Never wanted the monthly prescription, so I have pursued through other means. The last two years I have not had many sober periods of any serious length. I am on Day 2, and actually was able to taper - so physical symptoms are at a minimum (diarrhea anyone?) - but this time I have to not go back. I am somewhat sad, angry, full of regret, etc. that I would let myself get to this point. I have never tried formal recovery to this point, but have tried quitting to no avail.
In the last couple years I have probably spent close to 10K on pills. All "regulars" like Lortab/Vicodin/Oxycodone. I would go in three-to-four day spurts and take maybe 10-15 a day at the end.
I have a wife and kid and a very good job. We are for the most part OK at this point - it feels like if I go back again things will not be OK. My wife caught me about a year ago - I stayed off for only 20-30 days after that. She does not know now. Yikes....