Just an update...
To anyone who may care, I'm still clean. It's been about 6 weeks now and the more I go without it, the more I can't believe everything I risked to get it. No more heroin for me. Also, I'm able to stand my ground now if my fiance offers to go do it...in fact, he doesn't even really offer anymore because he knows what my answer will be. All the money we wasted, and putting ourselves at risk of getting arrested all those times...I can't believe I went that far. I'm lucky it didn't ruin my life. I honestly can't see myself ever getting it again. There are other ways than heroin that I can stay mentally stable, and I'm sticking to those.