Awww...sorry ..rough spot to be in!
If you can just make it through THIS day..just this one day!! You have a chance ! Try not to trip on tommorow and take it easy on yourself....it helps when we get the truth out there...Sometimes we think people don't know what is going on..but they usually DO know SOMETHING is up..they may not know exactly WHAT is up...But it cetainly alters the way we interact! It feels good to get the truth out...You are not bad or wrong...addiction is a disease . Seek support...you don't have to do it alone!
love norty