It's not silly to ask for encouragement on here, it's what we like to do! I couldn't have done it without the encouragement from people on here. No one else outside of SR really notices that I'm sober - well, not to the extent of wanting to talk about it at length. So SR has been a great platform to ask for a little pat on the back when I feel like I deserve one
Well done for walking away from that. I can imagine the temptation running through your veins, because I've had occasions like that, too. But each time you resist, you add a notch to your sobriety - and the more of those you have, the easier it gets.