Ft- in the past I tried making the decision not to use again, ever.... and would end up using within the next 24 hours... I'm not sure what you mean by having other things going on but I do have anxiety issues. The problem for me is I can make the decision not to use, and change my mind with a flip of a switch. I'm not sure anything can directly replace the effect I got from drugs. The problem with the anxiety crap is even though I'm getting better by natural methods I still miss the relief benzos provide. The main reason I got sober was because of the panic attacks I started developing while using cocaine and marijuana. Which never happened when I had benzos at hand. Sorry if this doesn't make any sense or if I misunderstood you, I'm about to fall asleep haha ....