I completely understand about being worried about being around certain people or in certain situations...THAT feeling has been one of my main EXCUSES for relapsing everytime I start trying to sober up.In the past its been : its almost the weekend and friends are coming over so Ill start Monday,Memorial day is coming so Ill start after that cookout,Christmas is coming so after that,Newyears eve no way I can stay sober so after that,company party,my birthday,my husbands birthday,anniversary, etc.......I think Im just now finally realizing those are all just excuses for me to drink and not feel as guilty...."I mean really who feels guilty about drinking Newyears eve?" so I get by with that guilt free...then that turns into Ive been drunk for a week strait......I am sure evryone is different but in my case I know I have to avoid "celebrating
' anything until I get more control on this.
* I am not even exagerating but Ive even used the excuse of having to had spend a few hours around my mother in law as an excuse to drink