Maybe I haven't suffered enough. Maybe I'm a masochist. Maybe we can turn things around, work things out. Maybe I am full of magical thinking and deep in denial. Maybe he is really sincere and working on himself. Maybe I continue to grow and shape my life in a positive way. Maybe we crash and burn and hate each other a year from now.
I don't know.
I really sick of thinking about it. I have to get on with my life. I want to be back in Old State. I want to give the marriage some more time. Guess I'm just not done.
He has to stay in AA and continue with counseling. The first time he calls me a name or otherwise abuses me, I walk. I hope he knows I am serious about this and I have the finances to make it happen.
Wish me luck.