1. I want to be able to walk a block without feeling like I may have a heart attack.
2. I want to save the $1000 odd bucks I blew on booze every month and buy a house.
3. I want to save my 3 yr old child the bad influence my father bestowed upon me.
4. I want to stop hating myself for my weakness and find self respect.
5. I want to stop hiding a evil little secret from everyone and re-enter the world outside.
6. I would only have to start recovery over again and it's too darn hard.