60 days clean and here's what I learned.
Week one sucked. I was jumpy and jittery the whole time.
Week 2, similar, but felt a little more myself.
I have some really screwed up nightmares.
Wild mood swigs. I did my best to hide them away from the general public and work. But just the slightest thing made me go off the handle. But once I calmed down and saw how silly it was to get so upset over it.
One day I'm feeling great about life and where I'm going and know that this was the best thing I've ever done for myself.
The next day I'm crawling the wall and white knuckling through intense desires to drink.
Which brings me too NA Beer....I drank 2 and it took the edge off. After that though it just made my cravings worse. Do not advise it, drink at your own risk.
My mind feels a little sharper and clearer and I've re-gained my wits back.
Other days though I feel kind of "cloudy"
Overall It's been a rewarding 2 months, and look forward to the claiming more of my mind and body back over time. I don't post much here but I check in often and read and built quite the collection of books here at home which I've read from cover to cover. I'll be sure to keep checking in.
And I've found the perfect picture that describes how my cravings feel:
