It sounds like you're making a choice and that was my first step. I had to decide that it wasn't worth it too. I also realized that, personally, my drinking started as a way to fix my problems and then it became my problem. I had to realize that fixing my problem came to mean, "not drinking." Then I had to work on it. I tried and started and tried and started and felt guilty about the relapses and then drank to not feel guilty. But, it's so worth it to make that first step. When you get sober you start to think about all the parts of your life that you missed. The good parts. You remember that you couldn't even enjoy the good parts before because your drinking and fear of getting caught and guilt about drinking made you forget that you were supposed to be having fun.
Good luck. I'm happy for you. This is a good step.