half drunk & crying
Lost my wife a month ago. Drank the whole month after 15 yrs sober. Poured it all out, been to 3 meetings. Said F-it about 8 tonight and bought a pint. I'm seeing the doc in the morn to hopefully get something? to calm me down. The grief and loneliness is just to much for me. Needless to say since her death I've had a little trouble with this higher power thing (she was only 56). Believe me I cry just as much when I'm sober. Sorry guy's, it's a little after 11pm where I'm at, so no one to call. Your it!! I'm not looking for answers or sympathy for my drinking. Just had to vent somewhere. I can't work anymore because of a bad heart (I know the booze ain't helpin that any). The point is I just rattle around a big old house all day and think of her.
Thoughts, prayers, and jiggy vibes appreciated,
Ron