You are worth more than somebody reading off a list of things that they don't like about you! If someone did that to me today, I would giggle and slam the door in their face. Someone that takes the time to write down and read aloud hateful things about another person has psycological problems. Alcoholics can't have healthy relationships with anyone! I don't care if you are Heidi Klum or Giselle Bunchen. They don't love themselves, so they don't love anyone else! I would go get my hair and nails done and go buy a couple new outfits today if I were you....you just got rid of some heavy baggage you were carrying now that he is gone. I would celebrate. He's not your problem anymore! No more taking care of a little boy (sorry, grown man) that should be taking care of himself!
Go have fun living your life now that you are free!!!!