Old 07-09-2011, 08:26 AM
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blueblooms14
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I’m working on trying to calm down. I’m in super-early recovery- day 31 of No Contact with XABF. I am very skittish and emotional at times, still. I come here to read wisdom and I get scared sometimes at how far I have to go. Like when I read GettingBy’s post on this thread, and she/you said that you are working on humility and overcoming a self-righteous attitude- Total panic: “Oh my God! I am going to have to do THAT too?!? AAHHHH! There’s SO MUCH!” So, yeah, I’m just trying to re-center into “day at a time” thinking and positivity for now. It's like the concept of target-fixation: you drive toward what you look at. I have a habit of staring at the negative and that’s where I go. I am trying to consciously stare at the positive. Meredith's post just reminded me to make that positive thing, at least some of the time, my HP. Thanks for saying that Meredith.
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