Have not visited a single family
member in one year.
And have had only emails with one sister.
Never saw my dad (talked to him maybe 3 times on phone) or brother (talked to him three times) and his family since we discovered my dad left alone with the streetman (with a probable criminal record) who asked who we were when we came to visit my dad.
I am just overwhelmed with the reality of this as the week this all happened is coming up.
During the year was detaching and feeling much better about it.
Almost in freak out mode - even asked my husband to not go on a trip.
Such a large family - 4 children and my dad and the stepmom.
The family dog (very old) also recently died.
Nothing is left.
My mother died of alcoholic complications 10 years ago and we thought the pain was over - but this woman marries my dad and this family is just torn apart.
Yes, I have gotten counseling, but wonder if a shocker of a memory can trigger such feelings a year later on the actual week it happened.
If I am busy I don't dwell on it as much but hope this is something that is expected as part of recovery.
Or did I not do a real recovery program that would have made me stronger dealing with this.