That's what I was afraid of. I guess I thought that because I usually don't drink every day, that I can go a few days without, that I wasn't physically addicted. I always thought I was psychologically addicted, but not physically. This is scary.
I just called my husband at work and for the first time revealed to him how much I actually do drink and asked him for his help. He was shocked - bad sign that I was able to hide it so well.