For all those posters who feel the need to tell Angie what she has to do, I would ask that if you can not share your personal experience and what you found helpful, but feel instead the need to control, shame and judge, that you step away from the computer, take some cleansing breathes and remember what it was like to be new to even thinking about working a recovery program.
Please keep reading and posting Angie. I hope you can find some face to face support through meetings and or counseling too - I found that invaluable.