I describe myself as a binge drinker .... over the years my binges got closer and closer together and lasted for longer periods of time. The consequences became impossible to avoid any more.
Alcohol was affecting my life negatively and I couldn't stop on my own. I tried.
I eventually went to treatment .... twice, once an outpatient program, I stayed sober for 8 months then checked myself into an inpatient program for 30 days.
I learned I was an alcoholic.
I can't say that you are, only you can decide that.
I can tell you from my experience that my drinking got progressively worse.
It never got better.
I had periods of sobriety but couldn't stay stopped.
I finally decided to give AA a shot and so far, it's worked for me.
There are many ways to get and stay sober, AA isn't the only way but it's worked for many of us here. It's worth looking into if you can't stay stopped on your own.
I'm glad you found us and I wish you well in your journey.
Welcome!