Great that you went to see the dr and that you are taking care of your mental health. Also congrats on being honest with the doc, that's definitely a step in the right direction. Trish! I really hope the meds will help you stabilize your mood so that you can feel better and continue your progress in recovery.
I tend to agree with those who say the emotional development can be stunted at the age one started using. The same happens with people who suffered major trauma, and sometimes even both things can co-occur in a person.
At least these theories fit my own development/ parts of me. I think some parts of my personality are my actual age, and some not really. But the good news is that it hasn't to stay that waay and it doesn't always take that many years for these parts of the personality to catch up with the rest.
It will become better over time. All the best,
Lionne