I'm so sorry you are feeling down today. I've gone through that many times, and sometimes it's just okay to have a bad day, you know?
I used to have and still do on rare occasions, dream about my EXAH. I always feel unsettled the next day too. He's deceased now, and it's weird seeing him "alive" in a dream.
Is there something special you can do to pamper yourself today? I know that helps me.
Sending you lots of hugs from Kansas!
