I had to fool myself. Tried different things to quit, a list of different things..from "weaning" to telling my boyfriend we had to have sex every time I craved alcohol (he thought that idea was great) to drinking 20 ounces of water between every drink. All kinds of things...none worked. One day nothing changed, but something did- I don't know what but I didn't buy my fifth of vodka on the way home from work one day. I didn't say anything to my boyfriend- just went about my business as if everything was fine. He didn't say anything either. It was like we were both holding our breath to see if it was gonna be true. I pretended alcohol had no business in my life...and my pretending is becoming reality. It's been 7 months. Now I feel I can start working on myself.