SoberJennie, you made the first step in a good way just by coming on SR, try to relax and take deep breaths
I know its hard to think in the future but your reward could be huge if you do the grass and wake up sober tomorrow I bet you'll feel a great sense of pride. Its hard I know but just keep telling yourself or pray whatever it takes to say I will not drink TODAY!!
And if you really need to leave dont be around that enviroment.
Peace Dylan