Hi guys, I might as well go ahead now and put out my SOS. I'm about to help my bf mow a football sized field of grass. We did this two weeks ago when I was still drinking. Sadly, the drinking was my goal, incentive, reward after all that work. The money is nice too... But, I do not care about money right now typing from this iPhone as I'm gazing out across that huge field. It's super hot here in July in Alabama. I am really super disgusted at the prospect of not much of a reward today. Plus bf and I have bickered and he and I aren't rock steady in our relationship at the moment... Given a bit of an eye opening with me being sober the past 4 days. Help. I'm feeling a bit suffocated at this moment. Maybe even panic??
