Originally Posted by
Leaping 
I think what bothered me the most about todays drama was the immediate physical reaction I had - my heartrate shot up, my chest felt tight and I had trouble getting a breath. Just like when he was home and would do something crazy. It was like someone flipped a switch and BAM there I was back in the mode of panic.
That's very unsettling, isn't it?! I used to have the same reaction after I left my EXAH, he'd call me, and I'd hear his voice! That was back before caller ID, so I would always answer!
Eventually I started hanging up on him, and even though it was horribly uncomfortable to so do the first few times, it did get easier.
Eventually he quit calling and found another hostage to play house with. As a matter of fact he married her, and she was the one who got to bury him when he died at the tender age of 47.
I still think of him from time to time, but it's just a passing twinge of sadness that he never found recovery, and gratitude that I am where I am today.
You're doing great!
