Hello, you have found a great place keep coming to it and rant and scream and cry whatever the f you need to do to get through any moment when your brain says you want to drink!!!
Being a life long drinker myself and just doing soberity for the first time, I dont know to much I only have 9 days but they have been a full nine days, unlike being smashed all day and night.
I am taking the AA route and I highly recommend it but what ever you choose just choose one thing not to drink and the sun will shine upon your face again.
Take care of yourself -hope to hear from you soon