There are a million things I want to say to you, Donald, but whenever I type I can't seem to find the right words.
You say that you know that you can't fix your wife and that you know she can't fulfill your needs. So why do you give the impression that this is exactly what you expect? Your hatred for your wife leaps off the screen at me - why do you want to be in this relationship at all?
To be honest, all I hear is quacking. Are you sure you're in recovery?
Good luck. I hope you find the peace that you are looking for.