Trust the process. Have faith that you will get to a place of neutrality when it comes to alcohol.... if you work a program and are fearless.... Don't force anything, except of course, don't drink even if your ass falls off...
I wonder why we need so much instant gratification, I guess it's part of the addiction. But try to see past that, past the dark moments, the urges, the self pity. Do not be afraid. You can be happy in this life without alcohol or mind altering drugs.
Understand that you are not the center of the universe, and that it's much much better that way.
