welcome i used to be closed minded also to aa na religion and just kept gettin worse broke mentally pyshcilly spirtualy i kept trying to do things my way it just didnt work same results insainty then i stopped fighting and said ok i give up and went to aa been sober now for 10 years workin on 11 1 day at atime trust me i not trying to sell aa we dont push anything on anyone its your choice your soberiety open minded willingnes was the key to my soberiety good luck