Wow, Thank you all for your responses, I truly appreciate the advice. Growing up in an alcoholic family (Mom has 23 years sober
, I know the lingo a little. He wants me to go to AA to be more spiritually fit and again to be closer to him to share with him. I feel Alanon will help me more with that. He just keeps putting it back on me that he can only be with someone that is like him. I told him that I am not like him but am supportive in his recovery. Funny thing is after 14 years of being together he just proposed to me last Monday
I just feel like no matter what I do it will not be good enough, so now I am rethinking a lot. First priority is our son. I do want him to be sober and clean, I do support him, however attending Alanon is helping but I do have a hard time sometimes understanding (I am very stubborn) the whole process. Yes I know I do need to get a sponser. Anyway thank you again for your opinions, it is a good feeling to know that I have support out there