How do you "be" angry?
I am so angry. I'm in my 19th day No Contact with XABF. In the months of his raging at me and intimidating me and finally blackmailing me in a way I couldn't believe, all I ever did was cry. I NEVER screamed back at him or even told him how sick I was of his crap. When I was a little girl and I was angry I just cried.
Now I want to go to his house or work and tell him what a #*%& he is and how he systematically harmed me and how immoral and foul he is. Like vomit, I want it out of me and on to him.
I KNOW that it is pointless to do that. But I need to do something, for me. This anger is blotting out my concentration and overriding my living and feeling.
So what do I do with this anger? Does someone have an exercise or process for how to rid oneself of anger, or process it? Scream? Beat pillows? Print pics of him and burn them? I've tried writing it all out to him in a letter but that didn't do any good. Still angry.
Help? Advice?