Thank you all so much for your support. I never thought I would end up here. The last few years have been tough. I work full time, school full time, two toddlers and not a great marriage most days. SO excuses aside, you are all correct. I need to get back to where I was. The easy part for me is all day, the hard part for me is when I get home. The first thing I go for is the liquor and it will continue until I go to bed. I get up and do it all over again. I'm bloated, emotional, and not the healthy person I had become when pregnant. I had a job that allowed me to see the worst side of people for 2 years, a lot of death. I'm sure this is another reason I have gotten to this point. Today is a new day and I need to move forward. Thank you all so much for your support. I will continue to post here for a while!