Alice - welcome to our family. When I first joined SR I was so numb from drinking I didn't know how I'd ever find my way out. As I read the experiences & suggestions here I began to see the light. Not feeling alone made all the difference to me.
Stay with us and tell us more about yourself - you'll begin to feel free again. Be proud of yourself for reaching out & wanting a new life. Some never see what they're doing to themselves.