AA for me jut means changing who i am. Before i started sing pills i liked who i was. I liked myself, i liked my friends, i liked my life. Sure there were some prolems that led me to pills. Or should i say the cycle of taking pills, but i did not start using because i hated myself. Out of personal experience people i know who bought into aa have changed, and hey probably needed to, their wholeselves and became different in a negative way. I do not want to change and hang around nothing but people in aa. Plus there are not any young people in aa where i live. It is hard to get into for me. If it works for you that really is great. And i really unerstand that some people must change who they are, but i do not want to. I just want to eliminate my pill popping and improve my life in mental, spiritual, and physical ways.