Originally Posted by
kopfan 
I don’t “want” a drink. But my mind keeps playing tricks on me. Why is it doing this?
Welcome to powerlessness. When I say I am powerless over alcohol, it does not mean alcohol jumps out and bites me like a snake. It means that I am powerless over that part of my brain that wants to drink, in spite of my best efforts to control those thoughts.
In my case, time spent "not drinkin" did not help the situation. I was still obsessing about drinkin at 120 days dry. I had to experience a "release" from the obsession before sobriety was worth having.
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