Thank you for sharing your story. I can relate with everything you said, it's nice to know I'm not alone..I am on day 2 and feeling pretty hopeful. When I start thinking that I will miss out on good times I realize that the good times have long been gone and I was kidding myself..There haven't been good times in quite awhile...years as a matter of fact. Knowing that all I have to do is get through today has been comforting. Congratulations on 4 days and getting your bike up that hill!