Freedom - I know i can't ... ant it drives me crazy because he can see it in others just not himself. And if it's too close to being like him he does get WAY defensive. *sigh*
I haven't been to alanon yet but I know it will help. I don't want my AH to know since it will only bring out the worst in him. I'm too exhausted with all this stuff right now to deal with the snit that will ensue about how I'm just imagining it, how I'm a prude who refuses to have fun anymore (since the birth of our daughter) and how he doesn't have a problem, I just want attention ... quack, quack, quack - blah, blah, blah. God I can hear it now... I don't want to hear it out loud. >.<
I don't want to defend myself to him.
