Serious - not highjacking your thread, but it's getting a lot of mileage and I wanted to post a question, since we both went yesterday as newbies..
This could be my own paranoia and insecurity - but maybe this is what hindered me from continuing to go the last time. I felt like all eyes were on me and that people were "sizing me up" or even forming immediate judgements of me. There were folks there that had sobriety dates 30+ years ago - most people were sober at least 6 months (and this was a Newcomers meeting). I don't know, I just felt very very insecure. I told one guy I had been to a meeting before, but then I wanted to say it was my first because for me, my mind was really in it, so I raised my hand and walked up and got the coin. I said my wrong sobriety date and then corrected it. Do these people think I'm a liar? Do they already think I'm going to fail?
I know, I'm crazy. Any thoughts anyone can share would be great. Did anyone else feel this way when they first started going??