Tuffgirl...
I wanted the marriage he sold me when we were dating!
Don't you think you were sold a false bill of goods?
Is he the person he held himself out to be?
I wanted to honor my marriage vows too but you can't have a 'marriage' when one of the participants places drugs or alcohol above all else. This isn't a marriage.
Please take a look at my signature line...
You have a different life waiting for you but you're the only one who can go after it.
I know its tough.
Keep working on YOU...and YOUR recovery....
Hugs............