Day One
This is the first day I have went without drinking in probably 10 years. Probably 12 to 14 beers a day. Sometimes over a case on each day of the weekend. I dont miss work, i dont have hangovers, i guess i just stay messed up all the time. Been drinking at this pace for probably 20 years, i am 40 now. Most of my life has been a blure. I know I am rambling, but I really want this to work. My two boys (8 and 10) seemed to look at me differently, something was different but they couldnt put their finger on it. I am not sure if either of them have ever seen me sober, isnt that sad.
Anyway thanks for letting me vent. I will check in tomorrow.