I know it is hard to go on. I lost a brother and a brother in law within one month of each other to an overdose. My brother was a suprise to me and we were just getting to know each other. He had just moved in with me 2 months before and was only 29 years old and I am 41 with my own children almost his age. This was such a suprise but I keep trying to go on and be glad for the time we got with each other.