Im still a fool for loving you
Well, Things are going pretty well. Were moving forward, were accomplishing a lot. But theres a detachment that I feel now, that i never felt before.
I feel so alone. I never could read him very well, but now im even more stumped then before. I always felt a solidness when it came to him loving me. I never questioned it, I just knew it. Even through the difficult times in our relationship, that is what glued me to him, was that feeling.
But now, I don't feel it anymore. I ask him a million times, are yu happy? Do you still love me? he never goes into great detail....(lol). But he tells me that he does and that he's happy.
But I know something is different, and its making me feel scared and alone.
I can't believe Im even writing this because things just couldn't be any better.
He's doing everything He can possibly do to make us happy.
So what is wrong with my brain
why am I so lonely? How do I fix it?
The answer that I am scared to tell myself is that it is too late.
The last time I left was the last time, We have done too much damage to our relationship and there is no turning back.
This time it's too late.
Thats what Im affraid of............