MichealR
Words seem so insignificant when a loved one is lost to this disease. Accidental death is something that we all fear for our addicted loved ones.
Please don't blame yourself and give yourself all the time you need to heal and grieve.
As far as the stigma of addiction, try to disregard the comments of anyone who insinuates the stigma and try to forgive them. They simply don't understand.
Please.....take care of yourself and consider grief counseling or even Naranon meetings. The more you understand about addiction, hopefully, the more you will forgive your fiance and understand that you didn't cause it, couldn't control it, and couldn't cure it.
My deepest sympathies......
gentle hugs
ke