Hi Micheal,
I too am sorry to hear about your loss. It really is a painful road when you loose a loved one, especially from addiction. I too lost a loved one Nov 09 and still feel the sadness.
Over time though, I am coming to terms with it slowly. As sad as it is, I think about certain times, like you, and know deep in my heart that I couldnt save her. I realize so much more now, that there were things going on in her mind, that I couldnt change no matter what I had said. The madness of it all, knowing that addiction took a life, it has taken more than her from me, you know, it took a family apart, it left children alone. A big gap in my heart, hopefully that will mend.
I feel for you honey, I understand, its a safe place here to share your thoughts, it has helped me alot. Hold onto the good memories you have and try to smile, ok. JJ