Can't stop crying...
For the past few years I knew I had to quit again, I had 5 years sober and then life threw me some curve balls and I thought I could moderate. Well, here I am 5 years later after modding for a year and I am worse than when I quit the first time. I had my last bender a week ago and after that I knew in my heart that was it or else I would die before my time. I drank a bit this past Saturday and sincerely made up my mind Sunday that enough is enough.
Well, since my last hurrah so to say I have been so teary and have crying jags out of the blue. I know I have buried my emotions - I have lost soo many loved ones these past years - and they are finally coming to the surface. I guess it's a good thing and maybe now I can move on to acceptance.
But what I am asking is anyone else extremely teary the first couple of weeks. I don't remember being like this the last times I tried. Maybe that's the difference, this time I know I have to quit or else.
This site will help me tremendously through this journey, thank you.