(((SS))),
I am so sorry SS. Your Travis was a blessing in your life, and again, I say how wonderful that he had those two years clean. I am sorry that you must be without him physically present in your life. I believe that he is with you always.
You have taught me to put anger at my s aside, overall, and that it is ok to let myself feel the compassion that I want to give him. That was an eyeopener for me. I believe that some healing has occured, due to working hard on loving more . Love does not mean to enable, but that it is ok to show the love I feel for him, tho he has his addiction and his struggles that hurt him and those who love him. I believe that it helps him to know that he is loved, no matter what.
I know that your Travis knew that your love for him was boundless. The love and goodness that is Travis shines, and I hope that it shines through your pain today.
sending love,
chicory