Hi guys... really bummed having to say this and actually thought all day whether or not to admit it but, day 1. I thought all day about what went wrong to make me drink last night. I was so frustrated that I couldnt shake off the bad work day and I just wanted to run from it and numb it with some beers. I didnt try urge surfing or playing the tape all the way thru or anything like I shouldve have. I couldve done so many things to try and relax, but didnt and am right back starting all over, again. ugh.
On the plus side I am going to bed tonight sober. Just got done eating pizza and finishing a diet pepsi. And wrote a lot in my journal regarding drinking last night.